409 days to go


June 24th – 1 year 1 month and 14 days from today

8.56am The laundry still lays on my bed as my most beloved companion. More clothes are hanging on the living room couch, turning in the washing machine, or piled up in a basket. I’m not a housewife, I’ll never be.
Yesterday I worked at the library. There is no way I’ll finish before the school ends. I don’t know how I’ll do it. I hate it. When I got to school yesterday, I turned on the laptop. It took over half an hour to start!!! I really can’t believe how the teachers can work like that. And once it started and made all the configurations needed, I opened the library software and found out that the database and backup were gone. I almost fainted. I ran upstairs to one teacher who knows the system administrator password to see if there was a way to recover the data (if it wasn’t lost). He explained that one colleague was “cleaning” the folders. WTF!! After fifteen minutes, he found a folder with the backup. It me took another 15 minutes to copy the folders. So, I lost over one hour of work (an entire hour because my little one wasn’t there and I could be very productive).
Today is the school play. I have to iron the shirt that my second son has to wear. He’s a narrator. I should have let him try it first. I don’t want to get there and discover that it’s too small. It looks small. I’m stressing… And for so little!!
Yesterday, together with the man, we tried to agree on the things I’m going to take with me and the things that he wants to keep. He said: “I want the frying pan and the living room’s collage”… I said: “You can have the pan… But the collage?!?” Remember my collage, the one we made using garbage? The one with the ugly butterflies??…. “That’s going to cost you :)!” I can’t believe he wants that… He also said: “Take everything”… And I’m not sure I want everything, but it’s either that or having to buy everything myself. And I really have no money other than the €80 of my “One Way Ticket Jar”… The good thing is, with those €80 I can pay all the one way tickets and have some money left!!

The owner of the house still didn’t answer. And my stomach hurts. And I’m already planning the colors of the rooms. Wake up girl!! There is a lot to do before that! Like packing!

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Carpe diem. Taken from Horace’s poem, written in the Odes in 23 BC. Carpe comes from “carpō”, meaning “pick or pluck” (something that is ripe). And diem comes from “dies” meaning day.
A more literal translation would be “pluck the day (as it is ripe)” or “enjoy the day”.

From Odes Book 1 Number 11. In Latin and English:

Tu ne quaesieris, scire nefas, quem mihi, quem tibi
finem di dederint, Leuconoe, nec Babylonios
temptaris numeros. ut melius, quidquid erit, pati.
seu pluris hiemes seu tribuit Iuppiter ultimam,
quae nunc oppositis debilitat pumicibus mare
Tyrrhenum. Sapias, vina liques et spatio brevi
spem longam reseces. dum loquimur, fugerit invida
aetas: carpe diem, quam minimum credula postero.

Leuconoë, don’t ask, we never know, what fate the gods grant us,
whether your fate or mine, don’t waste your time on Babylonian,
futile, calculations. How much better to suffer what happens,
whether Jupiter gives us more winters or this is the last one,
one debilitating the Tyrrhenian Sea on opposing cliffs.
Be wise, and mix the wine, since time is short: limit that far-reaching hope.
The envious moment is flying now, now, while we’re speaking:
Seize the day, place in the hours that come as little faith as you can.

Below, I’ll paste the “real” meaning of it:

“The ode says that the future is unforeseen and that one should not leave to chance future happenings, but rather one should do all one can today to make one’s future better. This phrase is usually understood against Horace’s Epicurean background. It is important to note that the “Carpe diem” phrase is often misinterpreted and misused in contemporary popular culture, to justify reckless behaviour (“you only live once”). However, the meaning of Carpe diem is not to ignore the future, but rather not to trust that everything is going to fall into place for you and taking action for the future today”.

I have to confess that I’m really disappointed now… I like the popular culture and I will justify my reckless behaviour and misinterpret and misuse “CARPE DIEM” as much as I wish. Because I ONLY LIVE ONCE. There, I said it!

It’s about to rain so I feel like teletransporting myself to that beach. (With my butlers of course!) Punta Cana, Dominican Republic. (And I’ll be drinking a Martini Bianco, picture tomorrow)

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And I’ll add also a self esteem lifter (and one of the nicest things said to me EVER!)

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source: wikipedia.org

~ by DotedOn on June 24, 2014.

6 Responses to “409 days to go”

  1. I’m moving to a one bedroom myself. From a 3,000 sq. feet house to two bedroom apt. All down to one bedroom. At first it broke me and wife’s heart. We had our dream home that became a nightmare. In the end we chose to live. Less of the material worldly stuff and more that is lasting, family & each other. And the beach, that’s my little getaway too from it all!


    • 🙂 You’ll be fine (you’ve got each other… and the beach!… I have Internet and I can look for the picture of those beaches… And I’m a dreamer, so I can go to those beaches too… And take my butlers! :)). Have a great day! And thank you for liking my post!


  2. Y.O.L.O. is the new pop culture phrase and I love it. Carpet Diem (Seize the day) is fine with me too…
    There are beautiful days ahead P!


  3. In a little over 4 years I have gone from a 4-bedroom house with a 3-car garage (with my husband) to a 2-bedroom duplex with a 2-car garage (on my own) to 1 tiny bedroom in my daughter’s house (with said daughter, son-in-law, and two granddaughters). Even without my hoarding tendencies the space is extremely tight. We are anticipating a job promotion and move for my daughter, and hope to find bigger living spaces, too, especially for me.

    That being said, leaving my husband of 29 years to strike out on my own was the best decision I have ever made. I moved in with the kids after 2 years alone because of my s-i-l’s underemployment; now we work together to make ends meet. Husband who lives across town is better off on his own, too, even though he won’t admit it.

    Happy Germany adventure. – Fawn


    • Thanks for your comment Fawn! Sometimes we have to let go of things so we get the room for new things to come 🙂 (Like our freedom!).
      And I understand the “best decision I ever made” feeling :).


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