63

63

That’s not my cup of tea. I prefer a bigger mug with a bigger handle.
I feel like crap today. Monday evening I went to sleep feeling cold. Yesterday I had a runny nose. Today my eyelids are heavy and I need way too many tissues. I want to go to bed again. But I promised my kids lasagna. And probably you still don’t know this… But for me, it’s more difficult to break a promise than do to whatever crazy thing I said I was going to do… And I promised crazy stuff.

This morning I got an email from the former school. Apparently, I’m still on the parents’ mailing list. It was a bout the Halloween celebration. I miss helping at school. I specially miss the Halloween celebration. I loved going partially dressed as a witch with black clothes and a hat that I crocheted myself and helping the kids make some crafts or cooking something.
Maybe on Friday I post a picture with my hat on.
I’m not sure if people celebrate Halloween here. My kids will be with the man. But I will celebrate alone. I’ll first trick myself. That will be difficult, I’m smarter than me. But I’ll try convincing myself that the red wine has no alcohol and drink 2 cups. And later, the easy part. I will treat myself… I see a hot bath and chocolate, a lot of it. Will I be compensating for something? Too soon to tell. It’s only Wednesday. I may go and have a quickie behind the mill, because it’s SO EASY!

Now, what am I going to do the entire week alone? No idea.
I might have made the man believe that I had a date this weekend. We agreed on having the kids 50/50 during the holidays. Then he came out with the plan of picking the kids on Saturday evening… “Wait a minute!! You had an entire weekend and want me to have only a third of it? I have plans and I’m not changing them.” “Sorry, but the big car is in the garage, and I don’t think it’ll be ready on time.” “Then come with the small car and put a kid in the trunk. Or make two trips. I don’t care, I’m not canceling this time”.
So… On Friday, when he comes to pick the kids, I’ll be all dressed up and ready to go. What the fuck does he think?? I do have a life!! And if I don’t, I can always invent one. If that means to crawl around the house and leaving the lights off the whole weekend so everybody thinks I’m not here, so be it.
If that means that on Friday I have to go grocery shopping wearing a dress, make up and high heels, so be it. I don’t care. I want my whole weekend.

The other time I was alone for a week, I started feeling a bit lonely about the 4th day. Then I decided to put on the radio, just to hear a bit of noise. I chose an online radio called “Oldies” something. I got SO depressed!! If they are oldies, I should be supposed to know maybe one or two songs, the most famous ones, but not all of them!!!
After how long a song becomes an oldie?
“Mom, is your grandma Margarita the oldest person in the world?”
For goodness sake! She’s only 88!
I remember thinking my parents were old and they were probably in their late 30’s.
I’m in my early 40’s now. I still think and feel like when I was 11 (or 17, 22, 27, 34 and 39). That never changed. I’m not sure that will ever change.
My kids may think that I’m old… But I can still see myself like that little girl full of freckles and a big smile. (Only that now instead of two pony tails and pink panties with ribbons I wear a Texan hat and adopted more colors…)

~ by DotedOn on October 29, 2014.

19 Responses to “63”

  1. Reblogged this on Survivors Blog Here.

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  2. That’s wonderful! When we promise things to our kids, they truly take it to heart. A promise made is a promise kept!

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  3. Hmmmm….your Halloween sounds much more interesting than what I planned. I’ve become dull in my old age 😦

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  4. I hope that you feel better tomorrow. I know that life doesn’t stop when mom is sick. I had a terrible cold this week with a sore throat. I had to push through. Both my boys are coughing now. I hope they sleep through the night. Thanks for liking my blogs. Makes me smile despite feeling icky. So know that you are not alone. The weekend is almost here and you will have a great one. I am sure. Meghan

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  5. My Fellow Texas Twin P
    We can ride ponies together. My pony is named Macaroni after Kennedy’s pony at the White House. Maybe John John can join us since it is a fantasy. I was a total tomboy as a little girl so I would play cowboys and indians and would never wear my shirt. If the boys didn’t have to wear a shirt why should I. I was pushing for equal rights long before I knew it. I’ve been in bed for most of three days and the world revolved without me. I only liked halloween for the candy, we had to make our costumes so kids aren’t that creative without a sewing machine. When we got home my mother would take most of the candy away so we would stop and pick the best out and eat it all before we go home. Then as we got older we just took the best stuff so we could eat the whole time.
    Life has kicked me good but I kicked back tonight. Throw Back Thursday is out, reading post and hope to start on Lyme journal. I left out, I didn’t where my fixed or pink frilly panties as a young tomboy. I probably would have worn my brothers superman under wear if I didn’t get caught.
    Way to much info but you are my Twin so we can’t really have secrets.
    Take care.
    Pony Riding Gun Toting Twin M

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    • Hi Macaroni Riding Twin!!
      I love the pony riding without shirt fantasy with John John… But didn’t he die? And, can I keep my bra? That freedom kind of makes me uncomfortable 🙂
      Anyway, it fits the Halloween spirit if he joins us as a ghost… As for the name of the pony… I don’t feel comfortable riding a Macaroni, can I call mine Alfred? 😀
      My mom bought my underwear (and everything else) till I was over 20… She keeps doing it. I really don’t mind, I hate shopping. Wearing anything she buys is always better than going shopping and choosing.
      My brother was too young, I couldn’t fit his underwear anyway 🙂
      When I moved to Cowshitland and had to buy my own underwear, I went to the store and took one of those boxes with 7 panties… I did that until they store didn’t sell them anymore… Now I buy sets with 2 of the same, all of them funny and colorful. I wonder what I’ll do here. I may have to order them online 🙂 (Because asking the man to get me panties would be awkward 😀
      Riding Alfred This Morning Twin P

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      • Afraid of Boob Hanging Twin P
        Where to start, yes JohnJr., a very unfortunate death while flying to a wedding. His wife and her sister were in the plane. Tragic. I could never think of John as a ghost, he’ll always be John John to me. Except when I see photos of him as a man with his shirt off playing football, he was a man for sure. Ripped! You can ride Alfred, of course the way you said it you could take it a bit more kinky, riding Alfred?
        I have never met anyone averse to shopping, did you have a bad experience as a child or were you so spoiled. I was married and divorced by 20, granny wasn’t buying my panties. That doesn’t say much for my marriage staying power. The underwear probably lasted longer. I stopped wearing the frilly type around 4-5 yo, to much a tomboy for that. The fantasy ride would take us back to kids so the boob thing won’t apply. Now if we had the fantasy today, I would have to pick another worthy rider, and there are many, thinking Brad, Hugh, oh so many. I like them brawny, a mans man. If we lived that fantasy, the bra’s would stay on, hire a stylist, make up artist, the works, I might even shave, Not that they would see but you never know when a bit of leg might slip out, we are on a horse.
        As for underwear, you will have to smack yourself silly if you ask the man to buy you underwear. That’s just wrong. I have an addiction, it’s perfectly legal and I’m a preferred customer. It’s called the internet, you want, they have. Don’t buy the Day A Week type but don’t go beige either. Unless your ass is much better than mine no thongs unless in your country. We don’t like to see, unless toned. I don’t speak for everyone but I’m not putting mine out there bumps and all.
        I just took a photo of baby Macaroni and will send later.
        When I come to Germany, shopping is on the mind, I will teach you to love it, or make you pretend with a smile.
        That’s what Twins do.
        Still Crazy, Sleepy, Hungry Twin M

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      • Sleepy, Still Crazy and Hopefully not Longer Hungry Twin M,
        If you get a steed name Hugh, can I ride him too??? I promise that if you let me, I’ll smile when we go shopping and may even go crazy and get zebra panties (no tiger or leopard because I don’t like brown… and cow is OUT of the question).
        Don’t worry about the panties, they didn’t have a number or day of the week… and of course, NO BEIGE. They were all different colors. Once I got a green package with several shades of green, polka dots and lines.
        Thank you for allowing the bra :D. The hanging/swinging makes me lose the focus.
        No thongs here either… I may post a picture of my favorite panties 🙂
        Terrified of Boob Hanging Twin P

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      • Sharing Twin P
        We could share but I would have to go first!!!!!! You know what I mean. I’m laughing my ars off now. We could get two named Hugh, Hugh not Huge!!!!! I don’t know a house that’s not huge! I want you to get seven pairs of cow shaped panties!!!!! Then you can burn them and say a perm send off to cowshed land.
        No boob flapping in the wind for me. The older I get the more of a granny they look. Back in my self absorbed days, around 32 yo I had implants and a lift. I went from a paltry 36B to a 38DD, that’s a load to carry. No one ever tells you how much they weigh and how they will aggravate any back issues. I would not call them perky, I don’t think anything that big can get perky but I did require a new wardrobe. By 38 yo said good buy to the load and hello natural plus a few scars.
        I have to admit, you are afraid of many things. Did you fall on your head as a child? Have you always been so weird?
        How did you hide that from me all these years?????
        Happy for a good Throwback Thursday Twin M

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      • Hahahahahahah.
        Always this weird! I’ll ask my mom if she “accidentally dropped me” trying to fix me 😀
        I told you I was a bit odd 😀
        Two Hugh’s (or Huge’s) are ideal!! Can’t wait!
        I Think I’m a freaking DD again. My food for the soul goes non-stop to my boobs and hips. I got to G when my second son was born… If I ever find the picture, I’ll mail it to you… Near my boob, my son looked like he had a head reduction… It was out of this world… I’m not sure how I can ask the man to mail me that picture…
        I’ll see if I get the cow panties…
        I was trying to find pompons because Mandy called me “cheerleader”… Now I’m thinking if I want only the pompons or the whole outfit… I may be cooking another fantasy 😀
        I wrote a Vomit Story today and rememberer another one!! I’ll save it for next time 🙂
        hugs!

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      • Biggest Bust Twin I know P
        GG, I would die. My weight goes straight to the tummy, it may go to the ass but I don’t look. I have a large tattoo on one buttock, as long as it doesn’t look crazy I’m good. That was my 33rd BDay to myself. I like tattoos on some guys, like John Mayer has an arm sleeve, totally hot. Others not so much. I like the people who have cool tats but don’t act like they are so cool. I got my first tat at 13 yo while in boarding school, my granny wanted to cut my arm off to get rid of it. There are plenty of women who have a nicely placed tat others not so much. I am 1/8 Cherokee Indian, I wanted a dream whisper with lots of turquoise. The guy did most of it free hand and it’s still beautiful, I’m the only eyes that admire these days. I’n my young alcoholic days I would gladly show anyone even those who didn’t ask. Nothing shy about me. Actually never has been.
        No going back to Mandy’s thought of a cheerleader, that’s an easy purchased over the internet, you might get all types of use from the ensemble. Just think Paula the Spanish cooking cheerleader. That’s an easy vlog, you could show all of you cooking skills. Have different school colors, you have to do a shout out to your new home country, show yourself learning new German dishes. What a way to a mans heart. Just think,you live if small village, you become the local celebrity cheerleading chef, what man would not find that attractive. You can build on the idea from their but I think a perfect idea is hatched.
        I also have two vomit stories to finish out my memory back before I can move to poo stories.
        Always Thinking Twin M

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      • hahahahah!!
        I searched the whole morning, not many cheerleader outfits my size! At least not the ones I liked 🙂
        I want something a bit sexy. Yellow/Blue, out of the question, even if they are my soccer team colors.. And preferably one piece… I’m not bikini material anymore… 😀
        Cheerleader Cook sounds amazing… I think that I could have so much fun doing it!! 🙂
        Tomorrow I’ll search again and see if like any.
        No tattoos here… And just so you have an idea, when I go to the beach, I take about 20 minutes to get some courage and to take off my t-shirt… My second name is Shy, even if I can hide it pretty well 😀

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      • Sexy Cooking Twin P
        That’s perfect, you can do from home, very little investment, you know how to cook and unless there old ladies most cooking shows have some sex appeal. I say go Spanish Style with your hair fixed sexy traditional. That sets you apart. You could be the next viral sensation and Food Network will ring your door.
        Time for dinner Twin M
        PS My fancy mumu came today!!!!! Buying several more tonight!!!!! Might as well look good while creating more vomit stories!
        🙂

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      • Hola Twin!
        I’m happy that you got you mumu! And I hope you find more!
        I’ll try to find a cheerleader suit that I like… we’ll see 🙂
        The pantie shopping wasn’t successful at all, thank goodness I still have MANY 🙂

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      • shopping Shy Twin P
        Go
        to Soma. com, they have pretty undergarments for real women like us. No thong but here! I say skip the cheerleader. The Spanish Speaking Vegan Cooking show is where the money is. Float the idea of WP. You can set up a YouTube channel easy and see how it goes. I say Semi Spanish dress, sexy but tasteful for the kitchen.
        Listen to your wiser Twin M

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      • Wiser Twin M,
        I’M SHY!!! I’ll need like 3 cups of wine to give me courage and speak in front of the camera!! 🙂
        I’ll see what I can do, I know it’ll be fun!!
        Sexy but tasteful… Yesterday looking for panties I got crossed with corsets!! I always wanted one!! 🙂
        This freedom and the stupid eBay account will be my end 😀
        Listening to my Wiser Twin M, Twin P

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