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Saturday. I can’t remember when it was the last time I felt so relaxed… Probably in Spain (after having 3 glasses of sangria). I don’t know why, I’m just happy today. Yesterday it was really warn, 32ºC/92ºF. Unbelievable nice to let the freaking jacket home and wear a t-shirt.
Most of my Friday sucked pretty much. I had a few fights with the man over the day and that made me cry a lot. My kids saw me crying and shouting at him on the phone. They didn’t know who I was talking to, so they kept coming into my room and asking: “Who are you talking to?”
My weekends alone are mostly very sad and depressive so I was kind of getting ready to another ruined weekend when I thought: “Why should I waste my weekend like that when I could be having some fun?”
So I put a bottle of sweet rosé wine in the freezer and started preparing my “calming zone”.
I took all the things I thought were going to make me happy. The wine + glass, the snacks, my iPod and my computer. And of course, that little table I found on a pile of garbage on the street the day I went to pick my dad at the train station. Yes, I don’t mind reusing/recycling at all. Doesn’t it look cute with that little table cloth?

My favorite snacks are cheese curls. I love to eat them, I love the noise they make in my mouse and I love to lick my fingers after eating them.
For some freaking reason, I can’t find them in this town so I had to find a new favorite.
Same shape, also made of corn but instead of cheese around, these have peanut butter…
I was craving those for 3 weeks so I decided to get them for this weekend (you know, soul food).
When I was at the supermarket, I saw this “Special Edition” Tuscany Style. Imagine how a peanut butter sandwich with oregano, olive oil and tomato will taste… Strange right?

Only the first one tasted strange… I ate half bag… Thats about 488 calories because it was a 200 grams bag.
I also had a glass of wine. I didn’t feel better. I went for a huge bowl of chocolate ice-cream. No changes. I still didn’t feel good.
I went back inside and found two text messages from the man… I decided they were not going to affect me.
Then I opened my fake Facebook account and I found this:

I sent that to the man… You see, only one glass of wine was just enough to get my inhibitions away. I searched for some music on YouTube and I was dancing in my bedroom… I even did a strip tease just before taking a shower.

A few days ago, my friend T posted this:

The only difference was that I was already awake, just tired and exhausted of feeling all these crappy feelings that are trying to rule my heart and mind.
So I said to myself: “Enough”

I watched a movie, polished my toe nails and then I went to sleep. I didn’t sleep much but this morning I woke up relieved and smiling.

It’s after 1.00pm now and I’m still having breakfast. I just finished the other half bag of my soul food, but this time I did it just for fun.

I want to share with you a picture of one of our pets, Clover:

Like most of my pets, he lives outside. I let only my pet spiders inside.

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~ by DotedOn on June 6, 2015.