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Thursday. I was waiting for several months for something that could give me a little motivation or at least don’t make feel like everything is bad or dark and I finally got it. After 3 failed attempts, I passed my driving test.
I don’t remember many things being so freaking difficult for me. I needed to pass for many reasons but one of the most important was to show my ex that I’m not useless. Because that’s what he told me 4 days before I left him. “See? You are useless, you can’t even drive!”.
Imagine how horrible it was for me failing those three times and proving him right.
He took me to the place where I was tested and he was actually happy for me. But again, his happiness for me comes many years too late. He should have been happy for me when it mattered. He should have realized that I was always there taking all his punches and that one day I could get tired of it and leave. He never expected that, even after I warned him a few times.
Now I have my license and no money to buy a car. Even if I could buy a car, I couldn’t keep it for long. But we’ll see. I feel happy anyway.

In a few hours I’m taking the train to the airport and I still have a lot of things to do. My stomach hurts.
I hope WiFi works everywhere so I can catch up reading and replying to comments. If not, maybe I’ll have time while I’m at my parents house. It’s summer there and very hot.
I need the heat and I never thought I would say something like that. I’ll be happy when I sweat my ass off and feel dehydrated. I’m so done with this bone piercing cold, I can’t take it anymore.

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~ by DotedOn on February 18, 2016.