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Friday. I’m exhausted. Doctor in a couple of hours. I’m really anxious and I don’t know what to expect. The week is going very slowly. We had one sunny day and today is again cloudy and it was raining. That’s affecting my mood too. Right now nothing seems good and nothing satisfy me. If I’m not depressed already, I’ll be in a couple of minutes. I really don’t like feeling this way. I’m fighting it but I’m not succeeding. There is always something to push me down.
Not having the energy or concentration to catch up reading blogs is killing me. I hope that changes soon. I’m behind and I’m really sorry about it.
My kids are out of control, the weather is affecting them too (and seeing me like this is not helping either).
Yesterday, my youngest son emptied a bottle of softener in the living room. You have no idea how hard to clean is that. Everything is slippery. The only good thing is that the house smells like “sea breeze”.
And IT’S FRIDAY and I’m out of love.
Anyway, a song by The Rolling Stones. I’m feeling like Mick lately.
I was very lucky to see them in Buenos Aires in 1995. I thought: “I better take this chance because who knows if they’ll keep playing for long”. The play tomorrow in Missouri, I can’t believe they are still touring.
Enjoy this 50 years old song.
(I Can’t Get No) Satisfaction
(written by Mick Jagger & Keith Richards)
I can’t get no satisfaction
I can’t get no satisfaction
‘Cause I try and I try and I try and I try
I can’t get no, I can’t get no
When I’m drivin’ in my car
And the man comes on the radio
He’s tellin’ me more and more
About some useless information
Supposed to drive my imagination
I can’t get no, oh no, no, no
Hey, hey, hey, that’s what I say
I can’t get no satisfaction
I can’t get no satisfaction
‘Cause I try and I try and I try and I try
I can’t get no, I can’t get no
When I’m watchin’ my TV
And a man comes on and tells me
How white my shirts can be
But he can’t be a man ’cause he doesn’t smoke
The same cigarettes as me
I can’t get no, oh no, no, no
A hey, hey, hey, that’s what I say
I can’t get no satisfaction
I can’t get no girl reaction
‘Cause I try and I try and I try and I try
I can’t get no, I can’t get no
When I’m ridin’ round the world
And I’m doin’ this and I’m signing that
And I’m tryin’ to make some girl
Who tells me baby better come back, maybe next week
‘Cause you see I’m on losing streak
I can’t get no, oh no, no, no
A hey, hey, hey, that’s what I say
I can’t get no, I can’t get no
I can’t get no satisfaction, no satisfaction
No satisfaction, no satisfaction
I can’t get no
I hope your Friday is better than mine.
Reblogged this on SURVIVORS BLOG HERE.
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DotedOn said this on June 26, 2015 at 9:42 am |
“Sea Breeze” lol!!!! Was great to catch the humor in that and in the Stones! Saw them in 77 and again in 95…thought the same thing in 95 lol! Cheer up. It IS the weather. We just had almost 3 straight weeks of 14 celcius and rain but the sun and summer finally showed its face again yesterday. My gosh life looks and feels soooooo much different today.
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Heather's Starting End said this on June 26, 2015 at 10:47 am |
Thank you Heather!
Here it was also that cold (and even colder 5ยบC). Now it’s raining again and maybe from Sunday it’ll get better.
It’s not fun to much the weather!!
And the house still smells amazing ๐
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DotedOn said this on June 26, 2015 at 11:06 am |
I SO feel for you!!!! It really sounds like here. Our “summer” is done by the end of august. We wait 10 months to have temps go from 14 to 30 and the back to 14. Summer, so sad ๐ฆ Its the end of June already ๐ฆ ๐ฆ ๐ฆ
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Heather's Starting End said this on June 26, 2015 at 11:14 am
In 18 years living in this area, this one was the worst spring so far. I really hope we get some summer. Summer 1998 we had 8 dry days only (and not all of them were sunny!!).
Next week it should be around 30ยบC but until then, so many things could happen!! ๐
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DotedOn said this on June 26, 2015 at 11:52 am
Really does sound like switzerland!!!!!
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Heather's Starting End said this on June 26, 2015 at 11:54 am
Of course! But I’m sure you have pretty mountains around, I’m in flat Germany, even the landscape is boring! ๐
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DotedOn said this on June 26, 2015 at 11:59 am
huh???? You live in DE?
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Heather's Starting End said this on June 26, 2015 at 12:11 pm
Yes! I lived in NL for 17 years and last year I moved here. I like it but the town is very small and I’m alone ๐
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DotedOn said this on June 27, 2015 at 11:01 am
where are you exactly? Far from me????
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Heather's Starting End said this on June 27, 2015 at 11:07 am
I’m afraid quite far. About 150km north from Dรผsseldorf… I wish I was nearer!
Anyway, if you plan to travel, I have an extra room and you are very welcome here ๐
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DotedOn said this on June 27, 2015 at 11:09 am
That is why your weather sounded like switzerlands lol!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Heather's Starting End said this on June 27, 2015 at 11:08 am
Yes… It’s cloudy now but in three hours it should be sunny and stay sunny for a few days (at least, that’s what the forecast says right now, it could change in 3 hours) ๐
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DotedOn said this on June 27, 2015 at 11:10 am
drizzling here now. Was told 25c but doubt it. going over 30 mid week. How bipolar is this weather??!!!?!!! Yesterday was perfect but in all, I simply hate the weather here. Feel like I am loosing my life sitting under the grey more than 3/4 of the year
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Heather's Starting End said this on June 27, 2015 at 11:14 am
I totally agree with you!! But I would say more 4/5 of the year ๐
Also here it says over 30ยบC… I have to see it to believe it! I miss complaining at how hot it is! ๐
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DotedOn said this on June 27, 2015 at 11:18 am
๐ ! I am 15 min to the waldshut line btw…sounds like you can’t be too far from me ๐
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Heather's Starting End said this on June 27, 2015 at 11:18 am
Let’s say I’m far away from European standards :D… Can you see this picture?
file:///Users/Paola/Downloads/Bad-Bentheim.8.gif
I’m 3km away from the Dutch border (more or less in the same line where Amsterdam is but in Germany).
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DotedOn said this on June 27, 2015 at 11:23 am
You’re high up ๐ฆ !!!!!!!!! From the weather, I thought you were MUCH closer…that would have been nice ๐ We can meet in Amsterdam once ๐
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Heather's Starting End said this on June 27, 2015 at 11:28 am
Tell me when! ๐
Yes, I’m between the farms… I wish I was near the mountains tho!
I’m planning a trip to Berlin but I don’t do it because I HATE to go alone. If you plan to go there, let me know ๐
I live near a town with the Paris-Berlin line, so any city near that train line always makes me happy ๐ (Amsterdam is one of those cities :D).
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DotedOn said this on June 27, 2015 at 11:33 am
I’d do anything not to be within the hills and mountains and just be able to see forever! Berlin is supposed to be one of the nicest cities in DE!!!!! I will for sure let you know when I make it up there. My Girls have also always wanted to go! Rain has passed, birds are singing. There is hope yet, for this day!!!!!
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Heather's Starting End said this on June 27, 2015 at 11:44 am
We’ll have to wait until 2pm to see the sun again ๐
Yes, let me know when you are going! It’s a nice city.
Sometimes I feel like suffocating here and I need to escape. I went to Barcelona on my lasts escapes because I have cousins there… And I only like to see forever if I’m on the beach… seeing this green fields forever make me only feel terribly alone ๐
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DotedOn said this on June 27, 2015 at 11:48 am
poemsfromherlife@gmail.com write me ๐ I know just how you feel. I won’t be seeing a beach this summer, the only place I feel whole. Fist in the fall but at least it is coming ๐
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Heather's Starting End said this on June 27, 2015 at 11:53 am
I did! ๐
I don’t think I’ll be seeing a beach either… But if I see the sun more than 5 days, I’ll be happy anyway ๐
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DotedOn said this on June 27, 2015 at 12:03 pm
Twin
Put everything out of mind, take a notebook to make notes and just pay attention to what doctor says. Ask what options you have and the risk with each on. If it comes to procedures. You must have a clear head to hear the doctor and be present to be accountability for your part. If a procedure is suggested, get second opinion. Did he get you family history, I’m sure he did.
In 1992 I had cervical cancer. I had the option to keep my ovaries. Because both my mother and grandmother mother had ovarian in mid 30’s, I decided to have a total hysto. I was 28, not married but was not willing to live with question of what if.
I pray you are not facing any of these issues and a procedure in his office is all that’s needed.
I’m praying for you
Hugs
M
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Looking for the Light said this on June 26, 2015 at 12:20 pm |
Thank you Twin!
I’m fine, the doctor said that it could be stress, he didn’t see anything strange. I’m relieved. I don’t think I can handle being sick and far away from everything.
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DotedOn said this on June 27, 2015 at 11:02 am |
Any day is made better by the Stones! Excellent selection. The rain will stop, the sun will come out, and you’ll smile at the rainbow before you. Here’s a little more Mick to help you get your mojo going:
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The V-Pub said this on June 26, 2015 at 4:35 pm |
Thank you Rob! I love that song, it’s the kind of song that makes one happy ๐
Still raining here, it should stop soon. I’m done with matching the weather ๐
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DotedOn said this on June 27, 2015 at 11:06 am |
Hard to believe we are still enjoying that song after all this time. Hope your weekend picks up.
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Marissa Bergen said this on June 26, 2015 at 5:39 pm |
Thank you Marissa! ๐
Mostly all their songs don’t seem to suffer the pass of time ๐
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DotedOn said this on June 27, 2015 at 11:08 am |
This is true. It’s amazing how much of the music I listened to as a youngster is still popular with my kids and their friends.
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Marissa Bergen said this on June 27, 2015 at 7:05 pm
we feel less old! ๐
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DotedOn said this on June 27, 2015 at 8:15 pm
Thank you Twin!
I like the name ๐
I don’t feel like celebrating yet. I will soon ๐
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DotedOn said this on June 27, 2015 at 3:24 pm |
Hello,
Iโve nominated you for the Once a Victim, Now a Survivor Award.
To read the details please follow the link below:
http://wp.me/p47Ymh-1Ij
Thank you for the work you do on behalf of people with mental illnesses.
RG
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robertmgoldstein said this on June 28, 2015 at 1:52 am |
๐ Thank you Robert! I’ll take a look at it right away.
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DotedOn said this on June 28, 2015 at 10:58 am |