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Sunday. I opened my eyes really early this morning but I didn’t have any intention of leaving my bed. Soon after, my kids were awake and that always makes my plans change in ways I don’t like. This time I told my kids: “Would you like a plain breakfast or would you like to wait for a bit while I bake honey bread?” “HONEY BREAD!”. So I went to put the ingredients in the bread machine and then back to bed for one extra hour while the “dough” cycle was working.
In the meantime, I read the comments of yesterday’s post. There is so much I want to say I’m not sure I’ll remember it all.

Donna (writersideup.wordpress.com) you are right and I’m not sure what kind of impression I’m giving, but it’s not that I’m in my tower waiting for My Prince… I wish I were, though!
I’m actually going on with my life. I keep mowing the lawn, fixing everything that breaks, learning things, crocheting, cooking, coloring, writing, cleaning (not as much as I should, but ok), playing my games and thank goodness, I don’t have to unclog my pipes (at least, some of them). Andrew, thank you again for that!
Kim (kimboxin.wordpress.com), you wrote I’m very funny and I have a lot to give. You are also right. It’s just that I’m not content anymore with being the court jester. I know that maybe that’s what I’m supposed to be and I’m only wasting my time trying to get another position in this kingdom. The thing is, I always thought I had to be the queen of my realm. To be a queen, I need to be a princess first. And for that, I need to marry a prince.
I know we are in the 21st century and maybe I’m getting everything wrong. There are not many monarchies left in the world.
But think about it, how the title “First Lady” sound to you? Just imagine me marrying a president. Who’s the first man who pops in your mind? Isn’t that super scary?

And what should I do with all the signs? The pond, the frogs and the white horse? Just ignore them?!

To be honest, if I say I’m not waiting for My Prince, would you believe me? I don’t even believe it myself…
Should I quit? I’m not a quitter!
But there is something I could do. Every time I don’t want to do something, I just leave it there. Stand by. I do that with the hope that the elves or someone else do it for me. I know that if I leave something long enough, there is a chance I won’t have to do it anymore because I may die before.

Maybe all this sounds like a contradiction. I don’t like quitting but I like even less doing what I don’t want to do.
I’m a bit lost and I’m not sure where all this will lead. But I guess this time, I’ll have to let it be. Things are not working. Time to move on?

~ by DotedOn on May 22, 2016.